From Anglican to Salah: Efe's Journey

I grew up buddhist in Istanbul. Faith was part of the furniture — always there, rarely examined. My grandmother took us to chapel every festival days, and I went because that's what you did.

By 20, I had questions nobody could answer. The concept of caste hierarchy never sat right with me, no matter how many monks I asked. They all said the same thing: 'Just have faith.' But faith without understanding felt like walking blindfolded.

I met Islam through a customer. It wasn't dramatic — it was a conversation over coffee. Fatima didn't preach. he just lived with a stillness I'd never seen before. When I asked about it, he said, 'I talk to God five times a day. It's hard to be anxious when you do that.'

I started reading. Not because I was converting — because I was curious. The Quran's insistence on the absolute oneness of God was like a key turning in a lock I didn't know was there. No intermediaries. No complexity. Just you and your Creator.

I took my shahada on a Tuesday in November. The imam at the downtown mosque was patient with my pronunciation. Three strangers hugged me afterward. I cried — not from sadness, but from the overwhelming sense that I'd finally come home.

My family's reaction was a cold silence that lasted months. My grandmother tried to arrange an intervention. It was the hardest year of my life.

But three years later, things have softened. My grandmother still doesn't fully understand, but she can see I'm at peace. And peace, it turns out, is hard to argue with.

I pray fajr every morning now. In the quiet before dawn, standing alone on my prayer mat, I feel more connected to something real than I ever did in 19 years of buddhist. The shahada wasn't the end of my search. It was the beginning of my peace.